Friday, November 13, 2009

" I'm Baaaaaack ! "


And aren't I lovely as ever !
Wow that was one long month.
Shingles , bacterial cellulitis , Strep throat twice , hospital stays , outpatient visits , inoculations , dealing with insurance companies
( isn't that always fun !) , filling out forms , faxing , waiting for checks ,
cooking , cooking and more cooking , cleaning , laundry , working ,
praying , not sleeping much , pharmacy visits , more cleaning ,
cheering up , more cleaning , more praying ,
well you get the idea and I am absolutely positive that I have left something out !

I've been busy. What can I say ?
Today I dropped my husband off at his truck . For the first time in one month . I am still praying for him . And I miss him already .
That part never goes away . However I am enjoying my alone time right now . My daughter Katie has company so she doesn't care if I am here or not right now .

Something else that's been on my mind today . It was one year ago today that I had my first stroke followed by a second "mini " stroke in February. I didn't want to mention it really but it's just there .
I try not to think about it much and I try not to worry about it happening again , but the simple fact is that I do .

It is the reason that I started my blog per my Daughter Ginny's
advice . I do believe she was trying to get me to relax .
Thank you dear .

It's hard not to think of it when there has been all of this stress floating around lately . But here I am , one year later , one year older and perhaps most importantly , one year the wiser for it .

And that is all that I want to say about that day .

Yes this past month for us has been challenging to say the least.
It has been very stress filled and full of worry .
Worry is something that we all need to avoid .

Matthew 6:27
"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"

It's not quite as easy as it sounds at times. But my husband and I
continually remind each other of these words .

And while I know that our stress and worry will continue
over the next few months , and maybe even years ,

I am here today and I am alive .
For this alone I am grateful.

I am back.

34 comments:

anupama said...

Dear Diana,
NAMASTE!HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!
Today in India we are celebrating Children's Day on 14th November,the birthday of our first Prime Minister of Independent India.he loved children with passion.
welcome back,dear!Hearty Congratulations for completing one year in blogosphere.:)
I'm so happy that I am the first one to comment.wow!that's a beautiful quote you have given on worrying.still we worry,that is human nature!
hope and pray you are in pink of your health!keep writing and expressing your feelings and you will feel happy!
I love you Di and your posts are so inspirational.
cheer up dear,you have a lot of potential!
thanks a lot for making my day!wishing you a wonderful weekend ahead,
sasneham,
Anu

Diana said...

Happy Childrens Day Anu ! I hope that you are enjoying the celebration. I loved reading your post about it. Thank you for visiting. I am trying to stay healthy and I will keep blogging as long as my computer lives!
Love Di

Gail said...

HI DIANA-

It is wonderful to see you - have you back! :-) All things considered you sound great. Phew. I am in awe of all you managed this past month. I am so happy your husband has recovered and Katie too and you.

Anniversaries are always tough Di- regardless, we remember days that were life-changing. I so understand.

And when you figure out how to not worry call me right away.

Love to you
Gail
peace......

Donna's Book Nook said...

It's good to have you back! Wow! what a siege you've had of illness and all the rest. Glad your hubby is on the mend.

I know about anniversaries of life events as well. I have made a real effort not to worry, but, as you say, easier said than done.

Get some rest--you are certainly overdue for some relaxation.

Diana said...

Hi Gail,
While I am glad that my husband was home for that month, it really was far from pleasant. I will call you when I figure out how to give up worry completely!
I'm just happy that it's calmed down for now. Love Di

Diana said...

Hi Donna,
Next week when Katie goes back to school, God willing, I am going to take a " Me " day. Just do whatever I want! I'm way past due.
Love Di

Being Pramoda... said...

Hi Diana..

That was sooo emotional as well as sincere ..

Loved the way u have thanked ginny to have advised to u to start blogging..:) Keep doing it for our sake at least..:)

I wish u many more such posts over the years .. :)

have a happy weekend..

Diana said...

Hi Prams,
I will thank Ginny again and I hope to be around for awhile longer.
Blogging is fun!
Love Di

Bill ~ {The Old Fart} said...

I am glad that you are back Di, I can truly understand your Stress. It hasn't been a good couple of months a spell ago for me. Once that stress is relieved, it is amazing how much life moves easier.

Glad to read that your husband is back driving and that Katie is able to have friends over.

You take care of you

Eileen said...

Oh, Di, I've missed you more than you'll ever know!
It's good to have you back!
And now you have to take a day or two where you lie around popping bonbons into your mouth!
I know that would be impossible for you because you'd be thinking about the next thing you have to clean!

And give Ginny a BIG THANK YOU from me too!
'Glad you're in my life!
'Love you lots!,
Eileen

Maria said...

Hi Diana...
Your post photo made me laugh out loud... YES ... you are back :)
Diana, you have had quite a month,--- there must have been showers of Grace flowing to keep you going and bring you through it all.
So glad to see your wonderful spirit soaring again!
~Maria

Teacher's Pet said...

Natalie!...You've taken on the Jack N. look....frigteningly famous smile you have there! I missed you and you know that I've been thinking about you and Jake and Katie...hoping that Jake was getting better and better. That was a bout he had with his leg and hand.
And, Di...I do hope that your blogging has been a stress reliever. No more strokes for Di...none, ya hear! You enjoy your time to yourself....and think about having breakfast at Tiffany's. It's so good to see your 'smiling' post.

Wanda said...

Great photo Di, pretty as ever, but you do look a little bit tense despite the full tooth smile!

Glad for you that your patients Jake and Katie are well and glad for them your patience held out!

I thought my week was busy, but you put me to shame! You reeeally deserve some downtime, let's both retreat to some place special, maybe Bernie's place in Canada or Barb's in Breckenridge!

Whatever you do this weekend, work less and relax more, I will be trying to do the same, because most of my leaves are raked and my carpet has been cleaned!

Luv and Smiles,
Wanda

Anvilcloud said...

It's human to worry sometimes, and I certainly do it from time to time, but it's important not to let it take us over since it doesn't accomplish anything. Have a great day, today.

Diana said...

Hi Bill,
Yes stress is horrible.It takes so much away from our lives. I do hope that things are working out better for you,none of us deserve to be lead around feeling worried all the time! Love Di

Diana said...

Hi Eileen,
I don't know about the Bon Bons but I do know that Katie is spending the night tonight at her friends house and I will be alone most of the day and evening! I am going to chillax for sure! And I get the puter to myself! Love Di

Diana said...

Hi Maria,
Yes I do believe in showers of grace. I can't think of anything better. I'm just glad it's over, for now! Love Di

Diana said...

Hi Jackie,
It is amazing how I can transform from Natalie to Jack in a heartbeat isn't it? I have learned over the year that stress and worry is very bad for me. But there are times that you just can't help it.
Love Di

Diana said...

Hi Wanda,
I have practically the whole weekend to do whatever I want and I am going to take advantage of that. I have a fridge full of leftovers! No cooking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love Di

Diana said...

Hi AC,
Your words are exactly what I try to live by. Love Di

Barb said...

Hi Di,
I've certainly been thinking of you - every time I clean I know it would make you so happy! (Don't worry - I think of you even when I don't clean, which is most of the time...) I'm glad Jake is well enough to go back to work and Katie is feeling better, too. Now, you definitely need a ME day. It's snowing here in Breckenridge - if you hop on a plane, we can go sledding! I'm celebrating a year of Life that you've had post-stroke (and wishing you many more healthy years!).

Eileen said...

DI!!
I practically choked on a bagel with your 'share' comment on my 'edible arrangement' post!
Seriously, Di, one or two words written by you leave me reeling with laughter!
'Love you!, E

Dee said...

Hi Diana, My name is Dee and i have been following your blog for awhile and decided it was time to say hello. We have a few blogger frinds in common. I am glad you are feeling better and i admire the honesty and sincerity of your posts and the fact you make me smile.

Diana said...

Hi Eileen,
I try very hard to make you spit. It is one of my newest goals! It helps keep my mind off of my troubles!
Love Di

Margaret Pangert said...

Hi Diana! I'm a new blogger friend of yours, but I gather you've been dealing with serious health problems, and worry and stress somehow get built into that equation. I think the blog is a great antidote; it keeps us creative, curious, happy, hopeful. Prayer is another good one, and I am sending you this one with love, light, and hope: "May today be all you need it to be. May the peace of God and the freshness of the Holy Spirit rest in your thoughts, rule in your dreams tonight, and conquer all your fears. May God manifest Himself today in ways you have never experienced. May your joys be fulfilled, your dreams be closer, and your prayers be answered. I pray that faith enters a new height for you; I pray that your territory is enlarged. I pray for peace, healing, health, happiness, prosperity, joy, true and undying love for God." xxox

Diana said...

Hi Dee,
And welcome to my world, crazy as it is! I enjoy the company. Thank you for following me, I will pop over for a visit and a read!
Love Di

Diana said...

Dear Margret,
You are so sweet for passing the lovely prayer onto me. Maybe it will help me get a better nights sleep tonight.
Things will get better. God willing.
Love Di

Sniffles and Smiles said...

Dearest Di!!! Yes, you are back, and better than ever!!!! You are an amazing woman of strength, wit, talent, courage and humor!!! And you inspire me with the way you take on the world!!! I am so thrilled and honored to know you!!! God bless you, my friend...Love you! Janine XO

Diana said...

Hi Janine,
I have never thought of myself as amazing but thank you, I will take it! I just try my hardest, pray and hope for the best! It's all I know how to do. Having met wonderful people through blogging, like you has given me lots of inspiration, That is a blessing!
Love Di

Jerelene said...

Hello Diana!
Wow...your post really hit the spot :) I needed to hear that Bible verse...I'm glad to be your friend..you ARE and inspiration!! And,you need to take it easy too!! Enjoy whatever time you get to yourself..believe me I know how precious that is :)
I'm glad your back...very glad :)
Love You...Jerelene

Diana said...

Hi Jerelene,
I am so trying to relax. But being a type "A" personality makes that difficult. The world is just moving too fast I think, at least for me!
Love Di

Rebecca said...

Wow, Diana! I thought that stroke was further back in your history! I am glad you're "here today...alive...and grateful to BE alive! I'm glad you're BACK!

That gratitude will carry you a l-o-n-g way! My husband put this on our church sign for this week: "Thank" if you love Jesus!

I thank God for you, your blog, for healing Jake and putting him back on the road, and for the gift of YOU to my life these past months.

Diana said...

Hi Rebecca,
Awww your so sweet to me Rebecca! I am so grateful to be alive and be able to do all that I can do. Life is rough but I have had a whole new outlook on it this past year.
I just keep trying.
I love what your husband put on the church sign. Perfect timing!
Love Di

Tranquility Speaks said...

Diana, the only explanation I have or rather the only thing that I can come up with is, that was God's way of reminding you not to worry too much. He has a plan neatly chalked out. You still have so much to do. So many more lives to touch (mine was one of them). It sure isn't easy. I am a disaster at stress management, and as soon as I know how to manage mine, I will let you know about it! He has given you a second lease of life, because you're not done yet. Don't worry. He is watching over you and your family always and won't let any harm come to you! Loads of love :)