God forgive me for posting this photo. I don't think that my Kate reads my blog but truly I am not sure. I am old in her eyes and boring and embarrassing, and slow and stupid, well I really don't want to go on as I just might start to believe what my fourteen year old thinks.
Judge Judy always Say's , do you know when a teenager is telling the truth ? When their mouths are open. Well I would like to have a little more faith in my girl but I have raised two other teens that were less than truthful at times.
It seems that the first two weeks of freshman year of high school is very exhausting! Mind you , I have not heard one complaint. Although I do believe that the shock of it all was a bit much!
I can remember high school but now that I think about it , I can honestly say that I don't remember all of the details of the first week or two. Perhaps this is a good thing. Or perhaps I am acquiring senile dementia .
The girl seems happy so far in this her very beginning of " The Real World ". You can be reassured that I will diligently be her shadow for the next four years. I do believe that I have learned from my past mistakes.
Patience comes most times with age. I wish that I had been more patient with my other two children when they were growing up. I can only hope that they will forgive me for not being the mother that I probably could have been. I do know that they love me. I do thank the Lord for that.
Unfortunately in life there are no redo's. So I pray that I gave them something to walk away with. Something with a little substance. Perhaps the knowledge , at the very least that God loves them. And God will always be there for them.
I acknowledge that I have made many mistakes as a parent. But still we all know as a parent we would give our lives for our children. In an instant.
As I look at that tired , exhausted , and still , little girl face in the photo , I can't help but think , can I be the best mom that I can be?
God willing I will be guided. The world has changed my friends. I am getting very tired. But I will never give up. I won't leave her side . I will be there for her as long as God allows.
Sleep tight Katie. Your road is just beginning and it is long . Get your rest while you can and know that I will be there when you feel the need for a nap.