Saturday, February 23, 2013

" Why I've Been Gone."

Gosh I know I've been gone for a while and I haven't visited anyone's blogs. There's no need for concern, everything is going fine here just very busy.

It took some time for me to get Kate back to good health since she moved back home. She is doing well now. I think she is even getting over her first heartbreak which we all know is really tough. But I think we've got her back on track, at least I hope and pray.
It was a rough and rocky road for a while.

So much has been going on here and I just haven't had time to do much online and when I do, I've been doing word search puzzles. I love them. Always have. When I do them, I think of nothing else which we all need sometimes. Mindless work. 

I've had the grandkids every other weekend which has been fun yet I realize how much energy they take from me. It makes me realize why we have children when we're young!! They seem to be doing fine. My son's divorce will be final the end of March. He and my DIL are now on good terms with each other, Thank God. We are all getting along and my DIl will always be in my life. I love her so much despite the problems that they've had. They have been together for 17 years so she has always been a daughter to us and will always be.

My oldest daughter landed a new job recently as a web manager at a major video game company but doesn't seem to be happy there. The company has great benefits and perks but she isn't comfortable with it. She has some thinking to do for sure. I miss her so, so much. I don't even know when we'll see each other again as we've all been so busy. She lives in North Carolina and we in Illinois. 

My husband is totally burnt out on his job but still he carries on. There is nothing that I can do for him which is a nightmare for me because all I ever want to do is help people. My Pastor tells me that I cannot help everyone. That people have to make their own choices and all that we can do is be supportive. Yet it's so hard for me to disassociate from his feelings. I have to for my own good however as his stress also effects me.

I had my six month check up recently and everything was pretty good. I have lost about eight pounds in the past two months and my cholesterol has dropped to a manageable number, FINALLY!!!!! However my I.B.S. has been acting up more than ever before. Doc gave me some medication for it. I had a horrible bout last week. Lots of pain. Doc thinks it's all stress related which I agree with. On a good note, I am weaning off of the antidepressants that I've been on since Kate moved back home.
As I said before, it was a really rough time. But now Kate is making me laugh constantly! And she cooks like a seasoned chef.
I am happy to have her back home. I am happy to see my Kate back.

Here's where my most recent stress point is coming from.
Kate and I are redoing her entire room. It was in such BAD shape. Lots of holes to patch. Trim to remove. Lots and Lots and Lots of sanding. Fitting that all in between working two jobs and taking care of this old house that is falling apart, getting my daughter back on track, well lets just say, it's been a bit of a challenge.

We are almost done sanding, almost. Then we have to wash the walls and ceiling. Prime and paint. Not to mention she has lots of furniture she wants to paint to match the room. The fact that she's 18, doesn't stop her from wanting a princess room. What a challenge. Anyway we have exactly 20 days until school starts.

We are both taking C.N.A. (Certified Nurses Assistant) classes. Here I am at almost 55, starting a career that I wanted 20 years ago. I've always dreamed of becoming a nurse. I actually took my college entrance exams 19 years ago to become an L.P.N. (Licensed Practical Nurse) . Then I found out I was pregnant with Kate. Which was a miracle as Jake and I gave up after five years of trying to have a baby together. 

So I had my miracle baby after a long hard pregnancy at 36. I had to stay in bed for the last six months of the pregnancy because of blood pressure problems and gestational diabetes. I was so sick that they didn't know if I would make it, or Kate.

So as many head and heart aches that she has given me over the years, well, I still feel blessed. But now it's my turn to do something. Menial as it may be. If I can become a C.N.A. it will help our family. I may not make it to nursing classes, but if I can pass this, I will be proud of myself and Kate. Kate wants to go on to become a P.A. (Physician's Assistant)   Well at least for now .
We will see. 

So I hope you can understand why I haven't been around much. Life has just taken over for now. I can tell you this much though, I will be back and I will visit soon!!

Love Di ♥


Rebecca said...

I understand. Continue to take care yourself - you know, like in an airplane they tell people with small children to put on THEIR oxygen masks first so they can then take care of their children!

Sounds like you're busy with PROJECTS! I won't even suggest that you take pictures (even though I'd love to see the finished products).

It's always good to hear from you, by the way. Friends DO care - even those like me who've never met you face-to-face.♥

Anvilcloud said...

It sounds like things are coming together. I say that the hardest day in life is when the kids move out, and the second hardest day is when they come back.

Gail said...

HI DI - good to see you posting and I feel your 'busy' and so many demands & challenges. Take time to balance and do something kind for yourself. Sounds like your Kate is getting it together - phew, huh? Know that I am hear for ya.
Love Gail

Lynilu said...

First-Remember you're never too old to do something you love, enjoy, desire.

Second-Things can be rough, but I remember this, "Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy." — Anne Frank

It's not easy, but your life is full of blessings. Hold onto those, and you (and your loved ones) will get through the hard places. ♥

Bonny said...

So glad to hear from you. Take care of you and Kate. Good luck with the classes, I'm sure you will do great and Kate too.

Dee said...

Good to hear so much positive....those curve balls hurt when they hit...knock the wind out of our sails...I can totally relate. It is hard to watch our loved one's struggle and not be able to help....I am a firm believer that prayer changes things. I hope you and your daughter will have fun redoing her room and going to school together...a good way to mend hurts. Hugs. Dee

Tamara said...

Oh Di! So good to hear from you and catch up on your life!


Tranquility Speaks said...

There indeed is a lot you've been going through lately Diana! I am so glad you've decided to enroll yourself for the class. For all you know if might ending up helping your husband. I am also happy to know you're doing good healthwise :-) I've missed you! Loads of love and hugs :)

The Bookworm said...

Hi Diana, it sounds like you've been busy. Best of luck with the CNA classes, I was a CNA, gosh over a decade ago. It wasn't the field for me, but I did work in a nursing home for a little while.
Take care of yourself xoxo