Well I have to say that it seems like a long time since I've blogged and I've really missed it. I believe that there is an old song sung by Rod Steward that is titled " Seems Like a Long Time ", and that song is what I am hearing as I type this.
As you know Kate and I ave both been sick. Katie is feeling better but still can't breath out of her right nostril so tomorrow is the day we go to see the Ear,Nose and Throat doctor to find out why.
I too have been much better but have acquired a ringing in my left ear for nine days now and it's not going away. I will mention this when we go, to see if I too may need an appointment. Or perhaps it's something that I'll just have to get used to.
I have been very busy this past week catching up on work at home, church and my peoples house that I clean. It was three weeks since I was able to clean their home so I just took my time.
Oh and my wonderful and handsome son had turned me on to a " Netti Pot " when my sinuses were so bad and I could not breath. This was wonderful and made me feel 95% better and completely cleared me up.
I would highly recommend the use of this. I went and brought my son a cinnamon roll and a Mountain Dew as a thank you to him while he was a work!
So yesterday was the first Sunday that I had been back to church since my mom passed away. I have been wanting to go back sooner, but if I would have went last week as sick as I was I probably would have scared people! I took some notes while I was there yesterday. I went alone as Jake had to leave earlier and Kate had spent the night at a friends house.
The following is a bit of what I wrote of my feelings while there.
As I sit here in my church home, the first time since my mother's passing, I can't help but feeling a little sad as she would sometimes come with me. I am sitting by myself feeling empty, lonely and melancholy. I am hoping by sitting through this service to gain some sort of comfort.
Our pastor opened the service by singing with his guitar, " How Great Thou Art ". I found it difficult to hold back the tears as it was both mom's and my favorite hymn. Pastor sang this at her wake.
Our opening hymn was " Lord, Open Now My Heart to Hear " which also seemed quite appropriate. We used " Matins " for the order of service and then heard the readings.
1 Corinthians 12:12-31a
Our next hymn was " By Grace I'm Saved " in which the sixth verse of the song really tugged at my heart:
By Grace! On this I'll rest while dying; in Jesus promise I rejoice!
For though I know my hearts condition, I also know my saviors voice.
My heart is glad, all grief has flown since I am saved by grace alone.
So by the end of the service I truly did feel happy that I went. And yes I did have people giving their condolences to me but I handled it just fine. I don't think that I could have done as well a month ago.
Jake felt bad that he couldn't be there with me but it was o.k.
I was o.k.
So I guess we could say that I am back in the saddle again! I am taking a day for myself today. I'm not going anywhere. I am going to stay home and do whatever I feel like doing. I may even start baby Jacks quilt again today. I haven't touched it since November and it was supposed to be a Christmas gift.
Life does have a funny way of moving on with or without you. So I guess I'm going to start moving on with it.