" I'm Bursting !"

I received the dreaded call today. I've been a bundle of nerves waiting and waiting for this call. It was the call that would tell me weather or not I could afford to have my double knee replacement surgery.

I didn't think it would be possible. I was quite sure that I wouldn't be walking much longer. My knee's have progressively deteriorated to the point that shots no longer last more than two months. 

Two nights ago as I walked my dogs for their final walk of the evening, I was in tears by the time I made it back to the house. This is more pain than I can handle anymore although I do believe that I have handled it well.


Last Friday I went for my MRI that would take the measurements for my new knees. It took two hours. The girls said that I kept moving although I didn't think that I moved at all. It was so uncomfortable. I've had MRI's before but not like this. 


I had all but given up on this surgery thinking that Jake and I couldn't afford it. But as it turns out, it was all a misunderstanding. The letter that I initially received stated that we would have to pay our share of the surgery within five days of the surgery including six months worth of follow up visits. The call that I got today just downright made me cry.


It seems that the letter that I initially received was a generic letter. Our insurance is picking up a majority of the expense. The orthopedic center is going to put us on a payment plan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thirty-nine days. In thirty-nine days I will have two brand new knees!


I will be able to sit without my legs up, dance (Oh how I miss dancing while I clean house!), walk, walk, walk!!!! I can go for walks with my grandchildren and husband again. I can have my grandson spend the night and be able to chase after him. I can take my grandchildren to the park to feed the ducks and play.


Hopefully I'll be able to walk up and down the stairs again without taking one step at a time and fear of falling. I'll be able to cook a real dinner for my husband without ending up in a bad mood and crying because of the pain of standing for an hour and a half!!!


I feel like I am in a dream right now. I need to keep my head on straight so I have decided to document the entire process. I will start sometime this week. I have my granddaughter over tonight and we've been having so much fun. I can only imagine the fun we can have if I could walk more!!


I can't contain my excitement tonight. But there was a lot of things that lead up to this. So I feel that I should record all of it from beginning to end. But for now I just want to say , Thank You Lord.