" Time "

"They" say that time heals all wounds. I have found this to be true. But I would like to know who are "they"?

For those of you who don't know me I will give you a bit of background. Two years ago my mother had a triple by-pass surgery after her heart attack. She was a seemingly healthy woman in her early 70's.

Shortly after that I had my first stroke. I am or was not I should say, as healthy as her. I had my second stroke three months later at the age of 50. Oh my God. 

This was the scariest time of my life. I know that mom was worried about me and I was worried about her.

And there is that horrible word. Worry. I don't have my bible handy but I know that I have posted in the past a wonderful verse about worry that my husband always points out to me.

You see I have a lot of faith I just don't have the words memorized. Something my mother taught me at an early age because of the situation that she was in, was that God is everywhere. 

Mom had been through a lot in her life. Her first husband that she fell madly in love with (My Father) abused alcohol to the extent that he would beat her, physically.

I remember one night as a very young girl, sleeping in a bed next to my parents. My father was drunk. I remember him saying " If you move I will kill you."

I must have been about four years old. All I could think of was that I should hold my breath because if he heard me he would think it was my mom.

He would kill her. If I breathed. Son of a bitch. Who would put their child in that situation? What did I learn from this? 

I learned that we love people. Even when they are bad people. I learned that being a parent is very hard. I learned that I can be a better person than my father was.

I also learned that life is so precious. If we have struggled through bad days than we are all the better for it. 

I have learned a lot. The horrible memories have faded now. And I know that this would make mom happy. She forgave. And so can I.

You know that they say "Time heals all wounds". I think that "They" are right. 

It's all within us to decide to let go. Let go of the hurt. Let go of the pain. And just live. 

So tonight when you start to doze off, just let the pain go and remember that "Time WILL heal all wounds".